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T.T I'm here coz I'm feeling chao sad nowww. HOW CAN SHE SAY SUCH MEAN AND EVIL THINGS?! T.T I seriously hope she doesn't read her blog. Or she'll be so hurt. She went cursing and scolding her chao sacastically straight at the face! Although it wasn't about us, I cried reading it. I guess I'm sort of dui4 ta1 you3 qing2 gan3 le. No longer like the past.
Haiz... Thinking of how much I hated her in the past. But that's not the point.
Anyway, she also posted something that I quite agree, and I think it's something 38 ma'ams should take into consideration. If 38 ma'ams read her post, I think they should go consider teaching all the things 39 ma'ams missed out for DALT just because their shi1 is not that good. But IF 38 ma'ams read the post, I hope they don't let her know this post and it's contents. It's really very hurting. She went scolding her straight at the face without giving any respect for her or mian4 zi. T.T and she said it so blankly in black and white... Haiz.
I don't understand NYNP
I really don't understand. Why can't we be like other units? They are living happily in the same unit. And what about us? We are here having internal conflicts between squads. What crap unit is this? I am jealous of other units. I am envious... Why is our unit like this?!!! It's like looking at other kids playing happily in a field with their parents when you have none. haiz...
I can understand why no one wants to join NYNP. Besides Nanyang being a girls' school and few girls wants to join NPCC, NYNP has no love. Even if they wants to join NPCC, or they have gotten in, there is a high tendency for cadets to quit. Why? Blame our unit structure. And what's the point of having unit activities when there's barrier? No matter how you try to 'bond' the unit, it will just remain like this. Coz there's something called the barrier there. When there's barrier, how do you expect us to interact during unit activities like the alumni games' day? We will rather be safe and keep our mouths shut then open our mouths and end up saying something we shouldn't say and getting ourselves in trouble. However, in other units, cadets can just freely express their thoughts without having worry about ma'ams and sirs chopping them into pieces.
haiz... NYNP is like the palace. Maybe it's due to the fact that I've just watch da chang jin. But the thing is, in the palace, there's no love from you seniors nor juniors. Only those from your good friends, normally those that enter the palace with you, in which in this case are our squadmates. Other then this, it's practically hatrad and competition. Competition to climb to the highest rank. Althought there's no competition here, we all work hard for 1 thing. So that we can show our best to ma'ams and prevent them from being dissappointed which might lead to them hating us and torturing us in NP. The palace is a lonely place. Though the people in the palace might not think they are lonely coz they have their 'squadmates', but compared to the villagers outside the palace, don't you think they are pathetic?
In the palace, you can get fame and wealth. You have a good status. A status that is better than the villagers. But so what if our unit is well known? So what if we get 1st in campcraft com? So what if we have a status - a NYNP cadet? So what? What's the point of being in an above average unit, other rather, a better unit?
We are not happy! We have to face people who are out there trying to get because of jealousy or whatever reasons! We have to watch everything that comes out of our mouth! 1 wrong word and the King might just send us to heaven! It's full of slanders and accusations! Anyone would have just pushed the blame to you and you will become their scapegoat. And there goes your future. Where not just leave the palace and lead your peaceful life as a free villager? So what if you have a low status? As long as you are happy! As long as you live without regrets!
So now, since the palace is such a horrible place, why do people still continue staying in the palace? These people are us. The stupid people of NYNP. We stay because a reason or another. Whatever it is, we don't want to leave because we don't hope to see the palace fall apart just because there isn't any workers to keep the palace going on. Things like cooking and cleaning. moreover, these things don't come naturally. You don't know how to cook the moment you were born..! Therefore, these are the countless tests that we have in our NP life. Weekly activities help to prepare us to be gong1 nv3s. Although this road is tough, we can hang on there for 1 reason, we have our squadmates there, going through the same thing as us.
Whatever it is, since we have all decided to enter the palace, we should put our focus on being a cadet. and forget about our past being a villager.
Actually, I don't quite understand what I'm trying to put across. I just want to say that we should follow chang jin. Remain a kind heart to everyone no matter how much that person hates you. Do not follow cui shang gong, "The palace is an evil place. In order to survive here, you have to be evil too"
What I'm trying to say is, Although some/ a lot of 38 ma'ams and 39 ma'ams hate us, we should not hate them back. The more they hate us, they more we should like them. Remain a kind and generous heart towards everyone including those who hates us.
hoho. I feel good now. I've said what I wanted to said. So BYE!