I am feeling very emo now T.T
I don't know whyy. haiz.
I'm like tearing away in front of my com
for nothing.
I know it wasn't for nothing.
lalala.
my tears were for her
Just feel very emo.
So I just tear. [??]
I tear
because I feel emo...
I feel emo because of her
I really think I don't understand myself.
how I wish I could be out there supporting her
my mood swings from day to night; night to day.
though I know it's impossible
I am truely a weird creature.
your pain...
I suddenly feel...
very hypocrite.
just remember
this isn't me.
you have me
so where is me?
supporting you silently
me can't seem to find me back ever again.
behind you...
gone forever... and ever...

title: coming home
album: share the love

never imagined it would be like this
always thought i'll have to fight u all the way
defences were up, i was on my guard
ready to say no, dont let my feelings show
but when i took that first step towards you
i felt like i was coming home
when i slipped my hand into your hand
i knew that's where i belonged
to u that's where i belong

all the time i'd been wandering around
unaware you'd been waiting for me
in a flash i could hear u call
suddenly i was coming home
certainly i am home

well it seems so foolish that i took so long
to discover that u were the one for me
but now that ive found you, my life has turned around
unafraid to say yes, ready to face the test
coz when i saw that look inside ur eyes
i felt like i was coming home
when i stood by ur side, shoulder to shoulder
i knew that's where i belonged
to you, that's where i belong

all the while, i'd been holding on
to everything that shouldnt matter
in a flash, i let go of my fears
suddenly i was coming home
certainly i am home

okay. let me continue my story from last tuesday. last tuesday, we had act with jiebin ma'am and peiyi ma'am. okay. the moment I heard that CI ma'ams were taking us I had this pa4 pa4 feeling. Even my zae agrees that humans become scary upon becoming CIs.

Jiebin ma'am took us for knots and lashings first. *horrified face* all of us were chao scared and chao nervous and chao whatever. and somehow, jiebin ma'am wasn't acting normal which made us feel even more _________. cong called it huo3 shan1 bao4 fa1 qian2 de4 ping2 jing4. okay. so jiebin ma'am needed 2 of us to go dowel poles so she asked me and cong to go get since we got 1st for quite some of the knots already. [1st as in ma'am was timing our speed]. nothing much.

then came the _________ part. drills. woah. Long long time didn't have this kind of drills le. quite horrifying coz ma'ams were speaking chao fast. so fast that you don't even have time to think. and since the were speaking so fast, sometimes, you can't even tell of they said keblakan or kehadapan. okay. that isn't the point. but after that, I felt quite shuang. hahaha. got cheng2 jiu4 gan3 you know! hahah. as in we didn't really made a lot of mistakes considering this is the first time in a long time since we had this kind of drills and so demanding and so stressful.

woah. debrief... ma'am just say like what we could improve on. hmm. ma'ams think we sucked that day. ooh wellies. I was quite proud actually. I mean at least I think we did at least 3/4 of the drills correctly -_____- okay. not saying that's a lot but you should have seen the situation. woah. it's like one of the very few times I actually had no time to slack at all. [squadmates all agree too!] as in not slack. as in normal drills at least you can yi bian listen to commands yi bian think of the command then execute. but this one does not allow you to think at all. woah. I could feel my brainjuices working hard in my empty skull. i was like 101% concentrating hard. wahaha. but as I said, after that, I felt quite shuang. hahaha.

wednesday... what did we do on wednesday arh? can't remember. okay. skip.

Friday. we had... oh shoosh. what did we have? I am suffering from stm. [short term memory!] oh ya. falg specialisation. me cong and chu 1 group. and our group name is called carbon. don't tell you why. wahaha. hng. so we started with roundlash first with zhiyima'am! wahaha *looks at cong* a bit.. the... confusing. so we like asked ma'am to demostrate like 3 times?? okay. so chu tried first. the I tried. then cong tried. anyway, I think our group was the slowest coz all we managed to finish that act was roundlash -___- okay. anyway, ma'am said my tension not very good. then after that tied one more with chu halfway. didn't manage to finish coz we had to go for unit recrea.

okay. recrea was whacko -____- so big group not very good. coz the person in the middle very can3. somemore got some people throughout the whole game never bei4 call dao4 lor. but it was generally quite fun =D

hmm. saturday. NO BADMINTON AGAINNNN! T-T I haven't had badminton for ONE MONTHH! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. NO I CANNOT. 1st week - project. by the time I reached there, only left 15mins. so not counted... 2nd week - go for dalt thing at jiaolian's cc... 3rd week - gala night performance... 4th week - fireworks performance. ooh. well. anyway, the fireworks were WOAHH! WOWWW! DAMN NICEEEE! gosh. I simply enjoyed it. hahaha. okay. at least make me feel worth it to sacrifice my badminton.

Monday. I had to do the MOE survey thing. I think I zuijin always very 'lucky' eh. haiz. So went at 2.40 as instructed with my classmates. [woohoo~ li ann ma'am was inside doing alr. wahhaa] then I collected my paper and xue ting ma'am came in!!! wahahah. okay. she sat at the first row. li ann ma'am also. woo. xue ting ma'am was sitting 1 seat away from jingwen! okay. I was sitting somewhere in the middle.

I must say that I do very slow! *faints* you know hor. When xue ting ma'am finished, I still left 4 more pages. *faints again* by the time I finish, the LT only left 2 other people who completed like at the same time as me?? gosh. what amazing speed everyone has. I think I'm going to die next year coz I do things [exam papers] very slowly T_T not my fault right. I was born like that. it wasn't my choice! wahhh. as in it's my xing4 ge2 to man4 man4 lai2. I didn't choose to like to man4 man4 lai2.

that was why I was telling my mama that NP is like totally unsuitable for me coz I like to man4 man4 lai2 while NP wants people to be fast [!]

wait. I need to go watch my show now. so I shall stop here. continue some other day. [that's what I always say -___-] wahhaa. I love procrastinating. therefore I am a bad student. thankyou.

dajiahao.

I shall start from last saturday's gala dinner night. Woke up when jiayuin called and *faints* we were suppose to reach at 9 for a rehearsal before we head for raffles convention centre. and it was 9 already. wonderful. no one told us. so anyway. all of us chionged there. We intended to reach at 1015 at first lor. So anyway, I reached at 10. and dear yijung actually reached at 1030. all of us so jinzhang coz the bus was going to leave at 1030.

Okay. So anyway, everyone was entitled 2 buns. [but there were extras so I ended up with 4]. but anyway, that's not the point. reached that raffles place and woah. big holding room for all of us. then not before long, we were down playing bridge. wahaha. didn't really get to rehearse our part coz chenlaoshi skipped our part twice or so [coz I think she thinks that our part quite good le. no need to practise somemore]. Yeaaa. I think we only got to rehearse once. went back to holding area and started putting makeup. lalala.

put foundation. same as the other time, all of us use jung's liquid foundation coz it's darker coz we are all chao tah people. then put blush. haha. I decided to try melia's blush. the rest all use back to same blush. but anyway, before we performed I bu3 with jung's blush. Then lipsticks. wahaha. Obviously I used another colour coz I was cheated by tayjiayuin the other time. I used the colour most of us used. then we decided to try this chao pink lipstick on pooh. gosh. she looked damn kiddish. we tricked her into using it by saying that even if it looks awful, we can bu3 with another colour after we have our dinner. coz after dinner sure need to bu3 coz you will eat away your lipsticks -____-

dinner at burgerking again. we were chionging to eat quickly coz still had to change to full U. okay. I was the last to finish eating T.T but I was chewing very hard already. So squadmates went up to start changing first. while jiayuin [who at that time, also haven't finish eating] pei2 wo3. in the end I dropped my burger so I didn't finish it. hahhaa. oh. forgot to mention that wannqin [guider] got caught by chenlaoshi *gasps* chenlaoshi drew eyebrows for her! wahaha. and she looked damn funny.

Okay. all 6 of us changed in 1 cubicle together. pro right! hahaa. handicap toilet la. -.- went back to holding area to bu3 zhuang1. yea. bu3 lipsticks. bu3 blush. then chenlaoshi said MUST put eyeshadow and draw eyebrow. but the eyeshadow not too bad coz we use this chao like skin colour eyeshadow. orange orange de. yea. but then hor! linkai put so much eyeshaodow for me!! T-T First she put this colour. then coz I got big double eyelid. so she put somemore and higher so can see. then she ask teoying. then teoying say cannot see. so she a darker colour and put and put and put. okay.

Then comes the funny part. draw eyebrow. melia has no eyebrows. so we decided to test test and ask this external person to draw eyebrow for her. and WOAH! So KONGBU! it's like those chinese opera that type. *gasps* so in the end we asked yvonne to help melia bu3. but in then end melia bu3 herself. they rub rub rub. and spread the eyeliner away and then use the brush make it more natural. so. in the end was okay. but melia with eyebrows look a bit funny. wahaha. then jiayuin ask yvonne to help her draw. then draw until so dark until she look like labixiaoxin. pooh also. clever me ask cong to draw. and I zi ji bu3 a bit also. my eyebrows look the best! hahhaa.

oh ya forgot the mention that that time we were talking to the chinesedance president [yan ngee] then suddenly talk about drawing eyebrows. Then talktalktalk then suddenly she ask me "Do you shape your eyebrows?" then I o.O "No..." I mean do I look like I go shape my eyebrows..? okay. so anyway, she went "Not bad... *impressed look* but you still need to draw your ending a bit" haiya coz my ending there is lighter than the starting there. as in lesser hair -_- so must draw a bit and make it as dark.

ehh. what else did we put arh. oh ya. linkai attempted to put eyeliner for me. hahaha. put it failed terribly coz everytime she tries to draw she will start laughing then I will start laughing also. but anyway, put that eyeliner is just for fun only. coz at that time it was still quite early. so even if it's very _______, can still clean away.

okay. then performance. damn jinzhang can!!! gosh. as in the audience, the lighting, and everything! [although I can't really see the audience coz we were required to take of our specs...] *faints* and I screwed the performance. wonderful! The ending that wave salute right, I forgot to salute. lalala. Not that I totally forgot but I don't know why but this time right, I couldn't see linkai's hand! so many rehearsals so many times, and every time I could see her hand so when she salute I can salute [it's wave action remember?] then I was like cannot see!! WAHHH. So in the end until the end then I saluted which is like wrong!! coz can see like everyone salute the wave action then I didn't come up then suddenly until the end then I came up. s.h.i.t. I almost cried out backstage after the performance can! T_T if it's not for the make up and that I still had to go up to stage for the da dan gao [big cake] and singing of 90th anniversary song, I would have cried horribly. coz I was really fighting back my tears.

after that, changed out, and remove makeup. oh ya. this time we changed out 7 in a cubicle. hahaha. quekying come change with us. li4hai4 coz I wonder how she can change in front of us. I mean we can coz we already xi guan le... yea... I wonder if all squads changes together or is it us only... hmm. hahaha. okay. sockkeng ma'am came to congragulate us for the performance. hahaha. sockkeng ma'am was prettyyyy that day! *faints* woah!! she wore highheels! Somemore the base was quite small... -.- anyway, that's not the point.

We went to make hanjing jealous! wahaha. apparently, she didn't see sockkeng ma'am!! wooo~ and she disclosed even more things [which are not suitable to be said here.] wahaha. [about ma'ams] gosh. she knows nynp like as if she's a cadet here. She goes crazy and idolises ma'ams the way cadets do [??] it's sooo damn impressive. I mean like she talks like she's from NP and she knows damn a lot of NP people [and that includes us now] and NP stuffs although that's not very surprising since she's like between two ma'ams?? hanjing's very nice! hahaha. she's chaoji friendly =D

yayy! in conclusion, although this dance thing brought us loads of trouble since it clashes with acts and dalts and since that period of time was POP and that means trouble. and even though we had to face all criticisms from chenlaoshi stabbing us behind our backs because we always miss rehearsals [not our fault right! We HAVE to attend last act, last dalt, and POP!! or I will roll over and die] and so happen big events always clashes, so everytime we have something big that we have to attend in NP, it'll be some big scale rehearsal for dance. So we always miss the important rehearsal so chenlaoshi hates us. [that was at that time. now, I think she's pretty impressed by us.] okay. at that time we damn scary and everytime we were damn jinzhang when we had to go tell her we can't go on a certain day... But I think this dance thing really gave us a lot more friends. and it feels nice coz you actually know people your squadmates also know that are not your classmates. I mean. aiya. it was fun la.

Although I don't deny it was a waste of time when we had to wait very long just for our 1 minute on stage. but playing werewolf with the guiders [wannqin, yixian & yiwei!!!] [okay. i don't know if it's spelt correctly but that's how you pronounce it] and all the dance people [linkai, teoying, quekying, yvonne, xiangjun, this other 206 girl that act as sjab that I forgot her name ><, this sec 4 senior as guider which I also forgot her name, still got who arh?] oh crap. I'm having shorttermmemory. and i'm quite sure xiangjun's name isn't spelt this way. but anyway, it's pronounced this way.

All in all, I kind of liked this experience. =D haha. tough and scary and waste of time and whatever at first. But now, I think it’s all worth it for whatever I got out of these two months. And I shall believe what chenlaoshi says is what’s she wants to say and not being hypocritical. I think our actions made her change her view of us. At first she liked us coz we were the only non-dance people who came for practises. But as soon as school started, we had our CCA too and so often don’t turn up for practices so she didn’t like us. Now, I think our actions really made it back up and won her heart. [okay. This sounds wrong.]

Hmm… like we were the only people who we snatching to help the theatre people carry props. After the rehearsal at raffles whatever place on that Monday, we were the people who went about the whole ballroom clearing up and picking all rubbish. Hmm… we were the only people who upon knowing on Thursday that we had to perform again on Friday, went to zou3 tai2 [coz we never rehearsed in the hall before] during recess and after school. Lalala. And manymany more. She probably saw all these. Lalala. On Thursday afternoon, she went “wo zhen de shi tai xi huan ni men le!” hahaha. Okay. She looked like she mean it. Hahaha. On Friday, seeing that we couldn’t sit, she asked people to take chairs for us =D felt like vip ehh. But still cannot sit coz we have act in the afternoon. So cannot crease our skirts.

okay.. I want to sleep already. shall continue my story about monday to today some other day. gudnite.

k, im posting

the dumb chem sia is soooo crap man.....uhhuh we are suppose to go check out every chemical reaction just for this stupid BRIEF intro? that is so goose! what's the point, like there's definitely a max mark for the intro right. ya...and it's like cant do anything else coz everything else has been done. stuck and doomed...ladies n gentleman, boys n girls, welcome to hotel california-.-

that crap speech...wonder if we gotta memorize it. hope not. i'll die man...my speech is so not memorizing material. but -.- for sure need to memorize...

life is a bed of roses. just that the roses are all gone with only the thorns left. ouch!

uhhuh...aaaand, guess what...jap hmw is totally foreign....k well, it is foreign but ahhhhh....im like supposed to know it right...

amaris' not at home. i called her home and her maid said 'miss amaris gone out'. super amusing. like the fact that there's someone out there who refers to scrabbie as miss amaris. pretty cool.

yea, but the main pt is w/o amie, what's gonna happen to the chemical reactions thing. screwed man.....

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wahh. very long never blog le. So I'll start from sabbs.

Basic electronic was quite fun =D and song composition okay la. me and yimeng sang and recorded the vocal part into our score. hahaha.

and I just want to say that this damn person who was using my class and table during sabb week VANDALISED MY TABLE. Whoever that person is, carved at lease 3 BIG NYNP on my table. And one was very deep and she coloured it blueee. and another was nynp rawk! and she carved harry potter. and some rubbish! crap her la. I know who is that person alr. Damn her. later next time cadets see that table hor... very what leh. it's someone from 212 and she's a thrower. I wonder how she knows I'm from np and I sit there. crap her. she even carved her name on my table.

4/8 saturday --- project & jiaolian's dian jing thing

Suppose to reach at 11 but I reached at 11.30 (= hahaha. Then do research and write report. very sian that day. totally no mood to do project. Left at 4.

reached bukit gombak mrt at 4.30[?] I was a little later than cong. squadmates saw 39 ma'ams walk to the right side. but we decided to ask the mrt person and the person said bukit gombak cc was on the left. So we decided to walk left thinking that 39 ma'ams went to the right for something else.

After walking for some time, me cong and kathy who went to jiaolian's cc before started doubting coz we were thinking that jiaolian's cc is bukit batok cc what. somemore we remembered that the last time we didn't walk this place before. So we decided to call ma'ams to double check if it's bukit GOMBAK or bukit BATOK cc. Then ma'ams said bukit gombak. So bukit gombak lor. asked a few people along the way to double check the direction of bukit gombak cc.

finally found it and it was some ulu under HDB thing. So called ma'ams coz we don't see them anywhere. after that, confirmed that we were at a different place from ma'ams [but that WAS bukit gombak CC!] So ma'ams asked us to go back to the mrt.

RANNNN all the way back!! Wahh! Very chuan3 but it was fun!! coz someparts were downhill and the wind was shiok. despite our crazy running back, ma'ams were already there waiting for us.

It turned out to be that bukit batok cc that we went before -_______- woah. we ran so far away for a bukit gombak cc which was wrong when that bukit batok cc was so near and we know how to go to bukit batok cc coz we went before.

went up to that jiaolian's daltroom place. and all of us were panting and sweating like siao after all that running. waited quite long before we performed but quite fun coz the 4 of us were crapping away. and WE GOT TO WEAR THOSE COOL DALT SHIRT AND SHIKU! ORANGE DE. WAHAHA.

me and jung da ba4 while cong and kathy hold the red ink for those VIPs to dian jing. xD

We left earlier than ma'ams. went to some store and I bought a drink and yogurt. but got no spoon! *gasps* so we went some coffee shop and squadmates ate rotiprata. finally got spoon. and kathy put her yogurt on her prata. then put curry on the yogurt. and ate it like that. *disgusted face*

Went to take MRT home. *gasps* saw ma'am at the other end of the mrt. luckily ma'am didn't see us. or we would have been killed coz we left early coz we said we had to go home and we actually didn't go home. wonderful.

6/8 Monday --- Dance rehearsal

It was a full day dance rehearsal at raffles convention center. The stage wasn't as small as the teachers kept emphasizing lor. -____- Then we played werewolf game for almost the whole day until I was quite sian. Nothing much. other than we had burgerking for lunch. and we were chao hungry but had nothing to eat after that.

wahaha. changed into full U. li ann ma'am came! *faints. I hope she didn't faint at our crap performance which was crap. But looking at her, she didn't looked like she minded anything. Oh ya. put make up. wahaha. melia lor! put so much blusher for me! *faints. I had red cheeks. Coz that cong kept saying not enough so melia keep putting somemore. Then at first I put same colour lipstick as jiayuin de. Then jiayuin keep saying it looked too light but jung said it's okay. Finally, I decided to believe jiayuin. So I asked jung help me put the darker one. and it turned out too dark. crap. So this Saturday, I'm going to put the lighter one. bleah.

yvonne went to put eyeliner *faints. She's suppose to be a guider!

8/8 Wednesday --- X-country

Okay. everything went smoothly [??] anyway, I don't care. stupid. I don't like to be IC. crap.crap.crap. Why cannot choose other squadmates?! Why must choose me?! I wonder how they choose de lor. Do they put the names in a container and lucky draw? Then I must have been really 'lucky' then... rah. So malu lor. Coz first time our squad is in charge of something? I don't even know what to do la. Somemore like we are not the oldest there... got 39 ma'ams. So very qi2 guai4.

Somemore now be IC le means next time will be squadmates coz everyone will have a chance mah. Means that for the rest of my life I will have nothing to do. T-T lalalaa. crap. poof. blah. buft. rahh. keee. booo. Somemore the person who chose me to be IC very...... coz I don't know how to do anything. So I was luan4 luan4 do. just luan4 chuang3. Somemore I'm not that type that know how to lead and control the situation type. So I also don't know how to do. WAHHH. I talk to them that time hor. I feel so... shy? like I want to hide my face like that. bleh. I feel so paiseh. Jung would be a good IC! At first is her de lor! Who ask her to go run competitive. Then become me. ='(

wahaha. anyway. JUNG GOT 11TH!!! *FIREWORKS* *CHAMPAGNE* YIJUNG'S OUR IDOL!!! YAYY! YIJUNG ROCKS! WOOTS! WE ARE SO INSPIRED BY TUNGYIJUNG THAT WE HAVE DECIDED THAT WE ARE GOING TO GO RUNNING EVERY MONDAY WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY MORNING TO TRAIN FOR SEC 4 X-COUNTRY. AND OUR SQUAD CAN RUN COMPETITIVE TOGETHER! YAY!

but I have a feeling that is going to be short term dream. hehe. I bet after some time, squadmates will all don't care le la. don't want to run le. [i think i'll be the first to do that eh] hehe. basically for the fact that I hate running the most.

Sijia ma'am got 1st prize for lucky draw [?!!] So lucky eh! I wonder what's inside... hahaha.

lalalala. went coro to eat. nothing much other than we crapped a lot as usual.

Went back to school for dance rehearsal T-T We are such poor things. don't you agree? rehearse... rehearse and rehearse. why do we need so many rehearsals?!! rehearse until I very sian can. yea. 41 had recrea with their NCOs coz they qian4 them recrea. our ncos also qian4 us recrea T_T [anyway yesterday the sun was so hot. so if have recrea I'll rather choose somewhere in the shade] Then they had squad talk also T^T 2 to 1 talk somemore. I ALSO WANTTT!! T.T Okay. never mind. then played werewolf again.

at about 5+ we decided to go play (= first me jung melia cong and jiayuin ran 1 round around the school [and I almost died] coz the TUNGYIJUNG RUN UNTIL SO FAST!!! pooh never run coz her leg injured. So came back and did 50 pumpings on the rough floor

Squadmates kept telling us to stop doing pumpings coz the floor is very rough and our knee will po4 pi2. But I kept telling them it's possible coz last year december we did 100 pumpings on that very same floor. [out of the 6 of us there, only me and melia did the 100 pumpings last year] but they were still quite doubtful. saying they're knee will po4 pi2. Cong said we should do at our own pace instead of giving timing. So me and melia decided to do together coz last year we did before. but after a few, melia's wrist starting hurting [coz she just sprained her wrist not long ago] So she stopped doing. then only left me and cong doing [the other squadmates don't want to do] YAYY! I completed my 50 pumpings. cong did 49 only! Coz she forgot the last one -_____-

then we do the commando crawl position thing. you know, that one where you have to support your body above the floor on your elbows and toes. yea. We did it for 100 seconds *victory sign* wahhh! Until the end, I almost cannot cheng1 already lor! Then my body was shaking. -__- okay. Everyone did except cong. she was counted for us. rahh. she count until very slow!

So upon completing, I poing down onto the floor. Coz damn tired alr. okay. so my leg had all the sand and crap. Then jung and melia continued with another round around the school while the rest of us did twinkles.

woah. I'm the most kelian coz I did 3 in a row. pumpings, commando position and twinkles. I was the only one who did all 3 can! Okay. finally, jung and melia came back! woots! SAVE MY POOR ARMS. It was then me jiayuin and cong's turn to run. again, pooh is not running coz her leg. yea. So she did twinkles throughout. Okay. me jy and cong ran another round around the school while the other 3 did twinkles.

okay. fast forward coz I want to sleep already. So anyway, we played tiaotiao and was damn HIGH!! and we played ________ after that. hehe.

Played bridge =D with my cousin and siblings just now! yayy! from 3+ until 8+ ?!! hahaha. My whole family loves gambling (=

Squadmates want to go out tomorrow to vivo to watch movie and shop =D but I cannot go =D Why I put smiley face? Coz I cannot go! =D understand? I don't want to go. =D Instead of feeling sad that I have dental appointment tomorrow, I feel quite lucky that I have an excuse not to go =D yayy! I think I'm mad. Coz normal people will be like cursing and swearing that they cannot go... but I'm feel more to the 'phew' side.

lalala. Like I said a lot of times, I don't like going out in big groups =D and as I have said a lot of times also, I prefer going out with my sister than squadmates. I am an insociable creature =D So too bad =D and I must emphasize that there are a lot of things some people can never and cannot and should not be replace in my life. Sometimes, once replaced, you will regret =D I'm giving enlightenment to all people in hope that they will not walk the same route as me. =D sometimes, you will really regret it =D

I realised something. People always like to use np to threaten me. stupid i-dot people. what makes you think people in np cannot make mistakes?! Aren't we human too? Why can't people in np live the way everyone does. why do we have no freedom and have to be control by others?! Why do we always have to be the one picking up all the rubbish everyone leaves behind? bleh. it's not fair.

And I was really irrtated by YOU. so stop using NP to scold and threaten me coz SO WHAT IF I'M IN NP. [do you think I enjoyed it?]
[haiz. okay. I have nothing to complain and no one to blame but myself coz I was the one who put np as 1st choice in the first place]
Okay. I want to sleep le. byee.

i just read the 读书 and i wanted to cry...

maybe one fine day our sqd shld have a montage too!
haha,filled with hp pics....

oh yes, im here to blog abt chu and the pillar

extracted frm the msn convo

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
orh you know what happened to me yest.?

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
did you know that time i bang into the audi pillar?

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
that time last act. that morning, i banged into an infront of audi pillar. ):

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
then got uncle cleaning the area outside the dance studio laughing at me

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
then last dalt that day i saw him there again

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
i made the extra effort not to bang the pillar

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
then i look back he look disappointed

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
then yest. i banged the pillar again accidentally.

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
then he wasn't there

*снu `!!__x sqms, take good care of yourselves!(:- says:
but then when i recovered and continued walking for a while, then i saw him and he laughed at me none the less

SO AMUSING!!!! IM AMUSED!!! laughs and coughs and laughs and coughs

HAHAHA

k i give up...honestly dunno how to post....

llamas