pipa

I quote from sharon's blog "i guess i only feel safe with squadmates. cos deep down. i know they'll never fail or hurt me(: thank you(:"

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coz deep down
i know
they'll never
fail or hurt me

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these words echo through me, deeply. don't you feel tears in your eyes after reading this? i do coz i suddenly feel so lucky to have sqms.

Maybe i didn't treasure sqms much...but it like, now i think bout it, sqms is just all there in my current life. And they would be in the years to come. i suddenly feel very sad that we'll have to have our POP one day, and that after jc we'll have to part.

We all know that after POP we'll still be sqms, still be close friends, but would it be the same? Instead of having to 'go through' all that, we'll have 'gone through' all that. All would become but a memory. we might never have to go through stuff, together, as a squad, as 40.

remember how i went off to sneak a drink frm the water cooler during drill prac today? i feel so mean at myself? Why hadn't i thought bout sqms, thirsting and enduring it? I feel so mean...so selfish of me....

will try to be less selfish in the future.

think of sqms who are 'there'.

np's gonna become a big part of my memory.

k, to the events of today....

btw, sqms had a discussion. we shall try to be unique 40 for now on....no more 'ma'am is liddat and therefore we are' kinda thing anymore....

went to KAP for lunch with sqms....I have discovered my absolute weakness for hot fudge sundae. it gives me stomach uneasiness.

practised drills, knots....need to speed up on knots...

end of speech

~pipa